Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Love?

 "Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."
-Carrie Bradshaw 

    A couple weeks ago I received and email from a person who asked why I am single? I had to back track and think for a second. Here is a story only three people know and I am only going to tell this story once and I'm gonna make is short. A couple years ago I was in a horrible relationship, it was abusive mentally and sometimes physically, I think I was too busy trying to make things perfect and trying to be optimistic on something that was never going to work out. It was my first relationship, I thought I was going to be in this relationship for the rest of my life. Things ended horribly in the end, I was cheated on and I still to this day remember the heart ache that I felt however it felt like a heart attack. I was later being attack through phone calls and texts, I had to even change my phone number! 
   I changed a lot after all this happened, actually I changed a lot while I was in my relationship. For years I blamed myself, I thought that if this person did not love me then no one would ever love me. I seriously would look in the mirror every day and pick myself to little pieces. So three years later, I am here today single and trying to get back to myself again. Back to the point I know why I am single, and don't get me wrong but I have been trying! One word comes to mind: ACCEPTANCE yes I feel like people these days want us to act this way, look this way, and be so much more then we are not. I believe that if you are worthy of my love you should accept me for everything I am, and I should accept you for everything you are. Patients is truly a virtue, because when it comes to love it demands us to be patient. So I will be here kissing many frogs until I find my prince charming, wish me luck! haha  

Xoxo,

Monday, July 2, 2012

Moving on.


    Hello my dear friends! I hope your days are treating you well, I apologize for being MIA for a second . I have Important news....are you ready? I AM MOVING! It is time for me to grow up and suck it up. I am leaving the small town to go to the East Coast, what better place to go to right? I am going to be surrounded by art and fabulous people. I love the East Coast you can find a little bit of each part of the world there! But I am mostly going there for the fabulous fashion and art. I might even take some acting classes, but I don't want to get too ahead of myself. So I am packing like a crazy person and I have only achieved 20% of my packing. 
     I have to confess it has been hard packing because I am throwing away things that remind me of my younger days, it feel like I am throwing away memories, everything is going so fast. I am a small town girl trying to get to the city, and now I am actually going to the BIG CITY! I feel panic and anxiety; and suddenly I have to remind myself why I am doing this. We all have to grow up and face the music one day, and my day has come. 
      I have to remind myself that, I have to put these "memories" and pack them up in boxes. My memories will be a part of who I am, and just because I packed them up doesn't mean I have to forget them. Isn't this what life is supposed to be about? Making memories, laughing, crying, loving, feeling, and living. So East Coast let's make some memories, make me laugh, make me cry, make me love, make me feel, make me live, and allow me to dance to the beat of my own song! Because I love you East Coast, I really do love you! 

Xoxo, 
  There will be so many more exciting blogs to come! 





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